How did I end up here and why? Strange turn of events actually. I have always felt different my entire life. I never really fit in, could never seem to get settled down in a religion or a job. I never agreed with the mass religious institutions, and just couldn't seem to find my place ever. I just felt like I knew God better then what was portrayed, I mean think about it... the mass of religion believes that if your bad your going to burn in hell forever, I knew better than that even when I was a kid. My human parents wouldn't burn my hands over a stove if I was bad right, so how could a God that was justice
and love do that for a few years to a human "sinner" .
I had my awakening about 3 years ago now in form of a message. I wrote it, and I had absolutely no idea where all this information came from. I felt so inspired to write, like never before in my life. It was a story about an angel in a graveyard, that came to bring me a vision. I was always the imaginative one, and I was always fascinated by angels so it was a nice hobby. Come to find out now that everything that I wrote back then in form of a story came true and I sit here at the computer typing relaying the information to you guys for the first time.
About a year ago on 3/11/10 I started to walk. I had no idea where I was going, but I knew I needed to be somewhere. I was in a bad place in my life, I felt lost, confused and alone. I was truly in my dark night of the soul. I felt as no one understood me so I mustered all my faith and headed to the local park near my house. I just started walking and I had no idea where I would end up, I was praying the whole way wondering why it was that I didn't fit in or could understand this world. I walked through the woods having no idea where I was going. I felt like I was being lead somewhere even though I couldn't see my hand in front of my face. I ended up climbing a fence and walking through the roughest terrain ever, I finally came to a clearing. I realized I was in a graveyard. I started to call out saying I trust you, I know you hear me Father, and my feet took me deeper into this graveyard. It was my walk of faith, and where it lead me to I wouldn't have believed it if it was written in some movie. So its pitch dark, and I'm alone and scared and I walking in a graveyard to where I have no idea.
I ended up in front of this 10 foot marble cross. I just stood there looking at it crying and I found myself on my knees before it. I was giving it all over to God, and this is where he lead me. Something happened to me there. I can't really explain it in words, it was like after I fell down and gave myself over I was changed, like Paul said in a twinkling of an eye. I didn't go to church, I didn't know which one was the right one... I just knew I loved God, and I loved him so much that it hurt.
I didn't feel like my old self something had strengthened me and emboldened me. I was speaking differently and I was really changed after getting back up. Something took me over, it really was like I was born again.
Here is the part where if I didn't actually write it myself I wouldn't have believed it later I reread what I wrote and it all made sense. I'm just going to paste the text because this is what I actually wrote in my story 2 years prior to this.
After walking for about another five minutes I came to a mausoleum. It was a huge marble structure that gave me something to rest on for a moment. The stone felt ice cold through my clothes and I could only wonder what the structure held inside. I followed the side of it unknowingly and became uncertain what I might find when it ended. I felt more alone now then I had ever felt in my entire life. I was beyond scared, and my body trembled from the mixture of both fear and the chilly night air. Thoughts flew through my mind of what could be hiding in the surrounding area. I felt compelled to turn to my right and when I did I came to a clearing. I walked for what seemed like forever thinking that it might lead out to a road or something I would somewhat recognize to get my bearings.
Then I saw it, a huge mass of what seemed to be a statue. Could it be what I came here for? I squinted my eyes and leaned my head forward. “What is that?” I whispered to myself. I walked hesitantly toward the massive dark figure as my feet quietly crushed the soft grass below. What he saw next sent icy chills down my spine.
I had stumbled on the mysterious angel statue that my best friends little sister told us about in the basement. To see it for myself put me in complete awe. My mind was bombarded with the fight or flight adrenaline that pumped throughout my body. Half of my mind told me to run but the other half was somehow drawn to it. I needed to get a closer look. My body began shaking uncontrollably as I hesitantly walked closer to the massive statue. What was to follow would change my life forever.
A huge shiny black glass statue of an angel looked down at me. The statue had four wings, two of them were encasing the body, and the other two were half open and jetted outward. There was a huge hood that was draped over its head. The statue was carved unlike anything that I had ever seen.
“So much detail.” I whispered to myself. The statue had many layered robes that sheathed the entire silhouette of its angelic form. It was the most amazing thing that I had ever seen and in just looking at it seemed that the world would fall away. It was sitting of a huge stone base and had to be at least 10 feet tall. There was an inscription on the base that said, "out of the darkness and into the light". I walked closer to the statue to look under the hood to see if he could make out any form of a face. The closer I got the more my body shook. I had made it up close enough to peer up under the hood and where its eyes should have been two white lights began to glow. Frozen with fear my body lost control and I started to shake uncontrollably. In that instance I began to think about my life and faith. I thought of a faith that would bring about any kind of hope of expectation of afterlife because I thought I was going to die. Then out of nowhere a voice sounded softly in my head as the statue seemed to become animated. It sounded like waves crashing on a beach, but somehow I could understand what was being said, even though there was no audible noise to be heard.
“Do not fear my child. I am not going to harm you in any earthly way. You have nothing to tremble about.” The figure spoke in a soft comforting tone.
“Wha... wha.. what? What is this?” I said. I wanted to step back but my feet were frozen to the ground. “What is happening?” I asked the voice. I felt like he was having an out of body experience and at any moment I would wake up because logic told me that this all had to be a dream.
The black glass started to crack as the angel began to move and the glassy marble like statue started to fall away. The more the glass fell away the more real the creature became. The top set of wings came down behind the massive statue. The front set formed around behind it. The 10 foot angel now completely freed from its glassy prison stood up and lifted a heavily hooded face. It seemed softer now, not like a statue in any way. The angel then gazed directly in my eyes. I thought I knew what beauty was, until I saw the softly glowing face of the angel. It had no mouth and where its nose should have been there was a slight sharp point. Even in the darkness of that graveyard its face looked like dark grey marble with two blazing white eyes. It was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen.
“No need for fear my child. Once again I will not bring any harm what so ever to you in any way.” It was like it was speaking to me telepathically
The voice wasn’t audible like sound usually is, but I heard it perfectly for some reason. It sounded like a low vibration and waves crashing on shore. They combined to make whatever it was saying understandable. I still couldn’t fathom how I could understand it and not hear sound. Other then the black outline in the moonlight and the way that the shadows played off the creatures thick black robes I could not see anything else other then the creatures hooded face and the two white hot slits that must have been its eyes under the hood.
“What is happening right now?” I stammered.
“You have much more power then you could ever dream of but have no idea how to harness it.” It said.
“Have you come from heaven? Are you human like me?” I stuttered, and even though I knew it wasn’t human I had to hear it for myself.
“I know that human’s minds work differently than ours so I will tell you to ease your imagination. I am an Angel child created by the only true God. Though angels are not human, we can assume a somewhat human form. In post-Biblical times, we came to be imagined in a form corresponding to the nature of the mission to be fulfilled, generally the human form. The name I was given is Gabriel child.
“Why are you here Gabriel”? I fought to get the words out. My body began to shake uncontrollably once again.
“I am here because of you.” Gabriel spoke gently.
“Me… me bubut why?” I said.
Gabriel reached his hand out to me. I reached out my hand to the angel and as soon as it touched his I felt like I was sucked into a vacuum. Flashes of blinding light pounded my vision. Everything around us swirled around in a white haze that was unimaginably bright, yet it didn’t hurt my eyes. Time and space fell away like someone put the universe in a blender. We sped through a soft expanse of clouds, with scenery unlike anything I had ever seen.
I was no longer in the cold darkness of the surrounding graveyard. We hovered miles above a glittering city. I found myself breathless as I stared into the many structures, pillars and columns of absolute beauty that there are no words for.
This had to be heaven, because I had never seen a place so beautiful. I turned for a moment to Gabriel, my eyes full of tears from what I was seeing. The black robes that had once adorned the creature were replaced by glimmering iridescent ones. There seemed to be a form there, but it was more of an outline of light that emitted a soft glow. We must have taken on a spirit form because he in no way resembled anything I had ever seen up until that time.
“One popular medieval view of Heaven was that it existed as a physical place above the clouds and that God and the Angels were physically above, watching over man. The truth is that Heaven is in another dimension. Something I couldn’t possibly describe to you. I had to show it to you. I assume you know where you are child?” Gabriel asked looking at me. Once again there we no words, just the sound I had heard previously in the graveyard. His eyes were still bright white light that seemed to look in my very soul.
I once again turned my focus toward the beautiful scenery. I scanned the area trying to take in all that I was seeing and the absolute beauty that encompassed every aspect of it. I had heard stories of how beautiful mythological architecture was eons ago with its columns and buildings, but this put even the stories and renditions in movies that I had seen to absolute shame.
I noticed that there were four massive gleaming white towers that appeared to be made completely out of gleaming ivory and gold. Silver and what seemed to be diamonds adorned the top of every structure in some way. In the center of the ascending towers was an immense pyramid. In the center of that, a brilliant white light poured from it so bright that it made the sun look dark. It was the most majestic thing I had ever seen. The sky was multicolored and endless and resembled one of our most breathtaking sunsets. Lights danced and faded in and out where the many colored clouds hung awe inspiring in the expanse above us.
“This is incredible! How is this possible?” I stammered.
“Humans have books to record their history, but what you are experiencing is something that I able to show you through my memory. It’s what your kind would call virtual reality in a way. I am recreating what I have seen and playing it back for you in real time. This is how angels record every aspect of human’s lives. We can playback things that our eyes have previously seen. Understand that we are not in the present at the moment. We are in the past.” The angel explained.
“What is that light that everything seems to be built around?” I asked wanting to fully understand what I was seeing.
“That my child is where the Most High resides. Come with me and I will show you more.” Gabriel grabbed my hand once again and we instantaneously appeared inside the building in luminous center.
Once again I tried to take in everything that I saw but my own mind couldn’t wrap around it. I felt weightless. I was in a massive triangular dome that was faceted all around like millions of cuts in a perfect diamond. Pyramidal metallic obelisks shot up from the floor all around me and soft light adorned the top of each one. Lights faded in and out inches from the outermost walls.
I saw a magnificent throne made of light and gold. Someone was sitting on it that had a form which seemed to be made of light for which there are not words. Circular light flowed forth from what I deduced to be my Creator. I knew at that moment where the pulsing illumination that filled everything in the city was coming from. A rainbow which seemed to be made out of emerald glass encircled the throne and from where He sat there were blinding flashes of lightning and the sound of low rumbling thunder emitting all around Him.
I stood a thousand yards away from my Creator in complete awe. I felt dizzy from just beholding it all. There was no way to recreate what I was seeing. Not even the best artist in the world could recreate it. It is something that has to be seen through your own eyes because even words do it no justice. Encircling the throne were twenty four other thrones. Seated on them were white robed men who seemed to be made out of pure light. Golden crowns hovered in the air above them.
Also before the throne there was what looked like a shimmering sea of glass, clear as crystal. There were also four creatures that resembled nothing of the world in which I had known near God. The first one was like a lion, the second was like an ox, the third had a face like a man, and the fourth was like an eagle. Each of these creatures had six wings that were covered with eyes all around them, even on the underside. I stared wide eyed at the creatures and they began to chant.
“Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and who is, and is to come.” When they were finished speaking the twenty-four men of light fell down before the One on the throne and worshiped Him. I felt like a microscopic speck of dust in the great cosmos, like I was unworthy to be seeing any of what was happening.
“No human can stand before the majesty of God because He lives in an unapproachable light. Know this though child, very very few humans have seen what you have. I wanted to show you this so you can understand the majesty and power of God.
I paused for what seemed to be a very long time, gazing at the vision of my Creator. “This is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. How could anyone not want to be near Him? Thank you Gabriel for this, I will hold it in a very special place in the secret places of my heart.” Tears were streaming down my face from absolute awe.
“You are special child. You have an overwhelming sense of giving in you. This is a trait that God most loves. Your spirit is what gives you the power, and one day you will master it. Come now I will show you more.” Gabriel once again grabbed my hand, and once again we went through a flash of light like I was going through a worm hole of light.
There was much more I wrote, I didn't want to post the whole thing, because its a lot. I guess you can say I feel for the first time since this has all happened especially since 3/11/11 a year since this has all happened to me that I can post it now and in fact I'm being lead to.
This really happened to me, I wish I could tell you how crazy I felt after all this happened, but I knew that God was with me. Here I am 32 years old, all alone in this world and have been show things that most people only wonder about. I feel almost obligated to share this you guys on here. I know this was a lot of typing, but I hope you got something out of it. Believe me when I tell you, things have been much much different since this has all happened to me, and continue to get more interesting by the day. I want you to know that you don't have to belong to a religion to love God, he loves us all equally, I am proof in point of that. It really is true though, eye has not seen and ears have not heard what God has in store for those who love Him.
Peace and blessings to you all.....
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