George,
Thank you so much for the warm welcome. Your site has offered me much comfort and hope. I really was starting to think I was being haunted the last couple of days, hence my having taken the time to look this up.
There are so many events from my past that are rushing to my concious thought. I was recenty speaking to an old friend and telling how stange this must sound, but that I had a big Blue angel that used to "watch over me" and that when my husband and I seperated, due to his abuse of drugs, I asked God to send my angel to watch overhim because I was afraid he would die. ...and I believe he did just that.
At the time I felt this beings' presents ( ironic typo..I think I'll leave it
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) in my life, I remember being on vacation in Jamaica. This being had become a very prolific part of my life. I had begun a type of automatic writing sometimes at night that I believed were messages I received from my big blue angel. I did not tell many people of this as it was extreme even for me to accept. During my stay in "The Enchanted Gardens" (The resort we were at in Jamaica) I was inclined to have a Taroh reading by a young Rastafarian girl. ...as she drew back each card she became more and more excited. She said she had never seen a reading like this..that at that point, I was closer to Goddess (Which as a Christian I sort of just listened..Goddess?) than anyone she had ever met. But that this would not be this way forever, I was at some sort of pentacle. Later that afternoon, I was laying in a hammock with my husband and was pontificating at length these very spiritual concepts, as if the words were being put on my tongue....then very suddenly it ended and I was told this is the sum total of what I would need to know to face what was ahead of me...2 simple words "Choose God".
That was it for a very long time.
Just recently I pulled an old book out that I must have acquired at least 15 years ago, titled "Angel Therapy". Never having read it, I pulled it out and turned to a section that suggested that I ask the angels to start working with correcting my thinking in my dreams. Which I have started to practice in addition to asking God to please send my angel back to me. I have suffered spiritually in her absence.
...that's when this 11:11 thing started..and not just the clocks, I was starting to think the last couple of days perhaps I was haunted. I would have to turn my TV off 3 or 4 times a night because I would leave the room and it would come back on. I would hear knocking on the window of my Kitchen as I cooked only to look out at a beautiful sunny day.
I would notice when ever I would pause a recorded show IT ALWAYS STOPPED AT 1:11 ..NOTE: just noticed the time a minute ago as I was typing 1:11...
Your site is comforting that I might again resume this spirit filled communion. YEA...Maybe big Blue is back.
Thank you again!!and God Bless
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