Dear Thiago,
I am so sorry for the pain you are feeling, with the loss of your friend. Sandy wrote such beautiful words in response, and she is truly a beacon of light! I agree with her heartfelt words, that we can look to our brushes with the Great Beyond for comfort, and we can work toward healing and understanding from the pain of our loss. Death is very hard, because even when we can feel and know that our loved one does live on - we still miss them, here in this life, and we are sorry for the pain that caused them to end their life, in the case of suicide.
I know Sandy attached a link for you to consider, and I have another for you to look at, if you are interested. It involves a dear young man, whose mother committed suicide in a violent manner. This young man has had no 'belief' system, as far as an afterlife, angels, spirit realms, etc. - and that is precisely, in my opinion, why he has had so many brushes with the Great Beyond, following his mom's death. He "needed" it! We suffer enough when we lose someone we love - but if we truly feel they are 'no more' once they have physically died, then I'm not sure how we can even continue. Bearing this in mind, I do feel and sense that beings from the other side have tried to offer comfort, peace, and a sense of 'knowing' to the situation - so that he can rest on her ongoing existence, and her attempts to reach out to him and to say "I am well." If you would like to read about it, visit this link. ( link lost )
I would like to offer one more idea for you to consider. When someone we love has suffered - and then died - we tend to focus on their suffering. The good news is this: they are no longer suffering!! It is over. If we dwell on their suffering, we do so unnecessarily - the suffering no longer exists. They are not 'trapped' in that moment, the painful moments that preceded their decision to end their life. Sad though it is that they made that decision - they are free. They are free from the circumstances that caused the sense of sadness, so deep as to say "I want out." They get a new 'life,' a new start, a new perspective, and they move on.
In the case I pasted above, with the young man's mother, she jumped in front of a train. Following her death, he was so focused on the train - so focused on the moment when she jumped. We talked about this at great length, till he could realize that the moment with the train was but a second in time - and it came and it went -- it is
over, fully and truly, finally, over. She is not frozen in that moment - she is not eternally there, with that train. Only he was - trapped in his thoughts, feeling "If I love my mom I have to suffer with that train, and the image of her jumping, for the rest of my life." Who benefits from that?! And what is the purpose of that?! He has come to see instead that however much he wished she'd not done it - it is over, and she is free. Focusing on the moment itself is not important - and it is not real anymore. Her spirit has been liberated from her body, as has your dear friend's. He is free now, and he can move beyond.
Peace to you Thiago, and you'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
With love,
Michele