Meditation Revelation
Posted: Tue Sep 27, 2011 7:07 am
Now what do I remember of my meditation....
I haven't done a 'formal' AC meditation for a long time.....
I think that some people (me for one) can be so anxious and want to meet our teachers and guides so badly, that we can't relax and let go enough.
well that was my case......I would try and try and try...get a couple of blips that I knew were 'the real goods' but I couldn't maintain it, or get there when I wanted to. So I gave up....trying on my own that is..
I had several long guided meditations that were great favourites, but it didn't really help me to get there by myself. So I just went along my path, investigating other things, some I found the thread of truth, others I tossed. I kept busy, doing my thing, helping out where I could.
Now that I can look back (cuz I'm in a totally different place than 2 yrs ago) I've made it...to somewhere???
I guess it's when I finally got to 'walk my talk',,,,all the teachings that I was experiencing and sharing... did a transformation thing (while I wasn't looking of course --snuck right up behind me and said...
Welcome Home)
in fact,,,it was only a couple of weeks ago that I knew I could come back to the mb, after talking with a special mb sibling,,,,,of course I could have come back at any time...it is hard to explain, but I'll bet I'm not the only one who has needed a hiatus...to get things straight...it sometimes takes awhile to get through your 'stuff'. So, I still have great appreciation and gratitude for everyone here and everyone who's not here, the seen and the unseen for helping me 'understand' so I could experience it and live it.
also, I'm not suggesting that I don't have any more 'stuff' to go through,,,wouldn't that be great! It's just that when the 'stuff' comes up,,,,I deal with it in an entirely different way.
So just what does all that have to do with the AC?????
In response to a thread, I said,,well perhaps we should ask the midwayers.....then realized that since I said it,,,guess I had to do it...
I had the house to myself for a couple of hours, so I got my/Georges AC CD out, got comfy and 'down I went'.....becoming a rose bush, and a leaf (still have a bit to work on the colours) then all of a sudden, it all came back.....my favourite place in nature,,,,my 'point of reference',,,,reaching the entrance and decending.....every detail was there.....so after the cleansing and lighting up....I proceeded to my work room.... all I can say is.....it was in a different place....the room was the same with the same things in it....but it was the AC itself that was somewhere else....(I didn't realize that till just this second)....
I had asked to meet my celestial teacher or guide...and that was about when I was consciously there...usually, I always have a conscious connection to my meditating self. So when you can remember that you were there and not here,,,,for me that's success.
Afterwards, I thought about the differences between this meditation and how they used to be.....
Ahhh Haaaa! well thanks be to those invisible helpers who have taught me along the way.
We all know in the beginning that we need to LET GO! of all kinds of things....I think my first two were, limitations and expectations....... but the big one is fear!
I give thanks more than once in a day,,,but today I had the clearest feeling of no fear....it made me look at certain fears in a different way, funny how they disappear when you face them.....own them,,,,then LET THEM GO.....it's almost like your parachute just opened....
oh, and by the way,,,I forgot to ask the question
love you all, pp
I haven't done a 'formal' AC meditation for a long time.....
I think that some people (me for one) can be so anxious and want to meet our teachers and guides so badly, that we can't relax and let go enough.
well that was my case......I would try and try and try...get a couple of blips that I knew were 'the real goods' but I couldn't maintain it, or get there when I wanted to. So I gave up....trying on my own that is..
I had several long guided meditations that were great favourites, but it didn't really help me to get there by myself. So I just went along my path, investigating other things, some I found the thread of truth, others I tossed. I kept busy, doing my thing, helping out where I could.
Now that I can look back (cuz I'm in a totally different place than 2 yrs ago) I've made it...to somewhere???
I guess it's when I finally got to 'walk my talk',,,,all the teachings that I was experiencing and sharing... did a transformation thing (while I wasn't looking of course --snuck right up behind me and said...
Welcome Home)
in fact,,,it was only a couple of weeks ago that I knew I could come back to the mb, after talking with a special mb sibling,,,,,of course I could have come back at any time...it is hard to explain, but I'll bet I'm not the only one who has needed a hiatus...to get things straight...it sometimes takes awhile to get through your 'stuff'. So, I still have great appreciation and gratitude for everyone here and everyone who's not here, the seen and the unseen for helping me 'understand' so I could experience it and live it.
also, I'm not suggesting that I don't have any more 'stuff' to go through,,,wouldn't that be great! It's just that when the 'stuff' comes up,,,,I deal with it in an entirely different way.
So just what does all that have to do with the AC?????
In response to a thread, I said,,well perhaps we should ask the midwayers.....then realized that since I said it,,,guess I had to do it...
I had the house to myself for a couple of hours, so I got my/Georges AC CD out, got comfy and 'down I went'.....becoming a rose bush, and a leaf (still have a bit to work on the colours) then all of a sudden, it all came back.....my favourite place in nature,,,,my 'point of reference',,,,reaching the entrance and decending.....every detail was there.....so after the cleansing and lighting up....I proceeded to my work room.... all I can say is.....it was in a different place....the room was the same with the same things in it....but it was the AC itself that was somewhere else....(I didn't realize that till just this second)....
I had asked to meet my celestial teacher or guide...and that was about when I was consciously there...usually, I always have a conscious connection to my meditating self. So when you can remember that you were there and not here,,,,for me that's success.
Afterwards, I thought about the differences between this meditation and how they used to be.....
Ahhh Haaaa! well thanks be to those invisible helpers who have taught me along the way.
We all know in the beginning that we need to LET GO! of all kinds of things....I think my first two were, limitations and expectations....... but the big one is fear!
I give thanks more than once in a day,,,but today I had the clearest feeling of no fear....it made me look at certain fears in a different way, funny how they disappear when you face them.....own them,,,,then LET THEM GO.....it's almost like your parachute just opened....
oh, and by the way,,,I forgot to ask the question
love you all, pp