Imagination or is it Real?
Posted: Mon Feb 07, 2011 5:49 am
So I bought the CD and have been using it for 3 days, I have good visualization skills, and am able to read and visualize better than hear and visualize. (If I read a book, its easier for me to really see in my mind what is being explained, rather than listening to someone explain it out loud, like on the CD). Visualizing the rose bush is partially difficult because I'm being told to visualize, not reading words. But I am still able to visualize it in my mind, I see the rose bush in a garden surrounded by a white picket fence, and in the distance is a house on a hill, and a mountain in the background, this is how I see it. Now If I read words on a page telling me to visualize a rose bush in nature, it would be much easier for me, because that is how I developed my visualization skills in the past, by reading.
For the first 2 days, I took the time to listen to track 1 only, and felt that my visualization skills were up to par, and continued to track 2, and then 3 just to see what I'm getting into.
I listen to this while laying in bed because I can be comfortable and still at the same time, I usually do this before I go to bed each night.
I do have alot of questions, since this is my first time meditating, ever.
1. During track 1, when I'm relaxing, Do I really have to feel myself become numb so I cannot move at all? Because I still move around in my bed during the CD, I don't feel any weird meditation feelings like buzzing or anything like that...yet.
2. When visualizing things in my mind, its fuzzy like in a dream, it doesn't feel real, is this normal?
3. Am I actually going to be leaving my body to go to the Akashic Library, or is this all apart of my imagination?
4. During track 2, there is no way I'm going to be able to count from 5000 to 0 in tens, so I always just let George continue what hes saying, and I remain silent in my body and mind, must I follow each direction to receive success?
5. I still see alot of blackness when relaxing, but I am able to switch my consciousness like as If I'm dreaming as a part of daily sleep, and thats how I visualize everything, is that normal?
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I was able to construct my scene in nature, and my akashic library on the first try, during day 3. If I were an artist I would surely draw it on paper for all to see, its vivid now, and I can see it in my mind any time during the day. My scene in nature is just as George told me to visualize, the only difference is mine had a white gazebo near the small creak. I walked down my 12 white cobblestone stairs, into my foyer/shower which is a simple square room with white stone walls, and some kind of golden Celtic trim in the middle of the wall, and the ceiling is pure white, and past my shower is a tiny library with books within the walls. My table is to the right, next to the right bookcase. My barometer is a simple glass tube with some liquid in it, and the numbers just float 3d in the air. I have a simple round ball globe, and a clock on a wood stand on my desk. The world map just appears in front of me when I was told to visualize it, and disappears when I'm done using it. My medicine cabinet and tool table have no place in time, and just pop up when I visualized them, and disappeared when I was finished. The elevator was at the end of the hallway, it was a cylindrical metallic elevator with some weird design.
All of this was what I visualized instantly, I didn't think about it. It just appeared in my imagination. When I was told to say what I wanted to do like talk to a celestial or a patient, I said celestial in my mind, and then the elevator came down, and I saw a bald faceless figure wearing a white crusader tabard with a red cross in the center, that I greeted, he walked in to my library, and then when George said your on your own, I just opened my eyes.
It doesn't feel real to me, It feels like I'm just making this stuff up.
Is this just a phase, am I gonna actually feel like its real? am I going to hear voices speak in my head other than my own?
This is how I envisioned my place in nature, I did some googling to see what a gazebo looked like in nature, and found out that this actually looks like what I saw. I never seen this image before.
http://static.desktopnexus.com/thumbnai ... mbnail.jpg
This is what the landscape looked like in my rose bush visualization, I did see this before, I guess this is why I chose that landscape.
http://www.wallpapersland.net/wp-conten ... lpaper.jpg
For the first 2 days, I took the time to listen to track 1 only, and felt that my visualization skills were up to par, and continued to track 2, and then 3 just to see what I'm getting into.
I listen to this while laying in bed because I can be comfortable and still at the same time, I usually do this before I go to bed each night.
I do have alot of questions, since this is my first time meditating, ever.
1. During track 1, when I'm relaxing, Do I really have to feel myself become numb so I cannot move at all? Because I still move around in my bed during the CD, I don't feel any weird meditation feelings like buzzing or anything like that...yet.
2. When visualizing things in my mind, its fuzzy like in a dream, it doesn't feel real, is this normal?
3. Am I actually going to be leaving my body to go to the Akashic Library, or is this all apart of my imagination?
4. During track 2, there is no way I'm going to be able to count from 5000 to 0 in tens, so I always just let George continue what hes saying, and I remain silent in my body and mind, must I follow each direction to receive success?
5. I still see alot of blackness when relaxing, but I am able to switch my consciousness like as If I'm dreaming as a part of daily sleep, and thats how I visualize everything, is that normal?
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I was able to construct my scene in nature, and my akashic library on the first try, during day 3. If I were an artist I would surely draw it on paper for all to see, its vivid now, and I can see it in my mind any time during the day. My scene in nature is just as George told me to visualize, the only difference is mine had a white gazebo near the small creak. I walked down my 12 white cobblestone stairs, into my foyer/shower which is a simple square room with white stone walls, and some kind of golden Celtic trim in the middle of the wall, and the ceiling is pure white, and past my shower is a tiny library with books within the walls. My table is to the right, next to the right bookcase. My barometer is a simple glass tube with some liquid in it, and the numbers just float 3d in the air. I have a simple round ball globe, and a clock on a wood stand on my desk. The world map just appears in front of me when I was told to visualize it, and disappears when I'm done using it. My medicine cabinet and tool table have no place in time, and just pop up when I visualized them, and disappeared when I was finished. The elevator was at the end of the hallway, it was a cylindrical metallic elevator with some weird design.
All of this was what I visualized instantly, I didn't think about it. It just appeared in my imagination. When I was told to say what I wanted to do like talk to a celestial or a patient, I said celestial in my mind, and then the elevator came down, and I saw a bald faceless figure wearing a white crusader tabard with a red cross in the center, that I greeted, he walked in to my library, and then when George said your on your own, I just opened my eyes.
It doesn't feel real to me, It feels like I'm just making this stuff up.
Is this just a phase, am I gonna actually feel like its real? am I going to hear voices speak in my head other than my own?
This is how I envisioned my place in nature, I did some googling to see what a gazebo looked like in nature, and found out that this actually looks like what I saw. I never seen this image before.
http://static.desktopnexus.com/thumbnai ... mbnail.jpg
This is what the landscape looked like in my rose bush visualization, I did see this before, I guess this is why I chose that landscape.
http://www.wallpapersland.net/wp-conten ... lpaper.jpg