
As I get older, the sleepwalking episodes are much less frequent but more violent and usually leave me waking up with my heart racing.
What happened last night was much different.... like nothing I have ever experienced before.
Little more background before I get to what happened last night... I went through a period of two months where I didn't see any repeating numbers. It completely stopped after I cried while telling my skeptical boyfriend one night back in May that I thought I was losing my mind... You see, I usually sleep through the night, but this one particular night last May I had woken up at 2:22 and had fallen back asleep and had woken up again at 5:55. The prompts were everywhere for years, but it was particularly frequent at this point. I had to tell someone. After I told him, like I said, it stopped for a while, until I started seeing them again a few months ago... 111, 143.... all over the place.
I've been feeling depressed the past few days. Sometimes I get this feeling like I just want to disappear. I feel like I just need a break from it all, as I'm sure many others have felt at times. I have been meditating a little lately and I feel like the more I meditate, the more I get prompts. I've been getting a lot of them the past week or two. I was bored at work last night and had a few free minutes so out of curiosity, I googled "depression lightworkers" and got some interesting results. After some reading, for the heck of it, I googled "Suicide lightworkers". I would never kill myself, it wasn't anything like that. Just curious to see what others thought. I don't even know what you'd call me; a midwayer? lightworker?
Anyway, I got off work, came home and fell asleep. At some point in the night, I was awoken by something bright... As I was waking up, I felt something in my hand and my first thought was "oh no I'm sleepwalking again"... I immediately realized I was holding my cell phone and the brightness was from the screen being on. Apparently, while asleep, I had not only grabbed it off the night stand, but I had also pushed the button on the side of the phone that turns the screen on and there it was: 4:44 am.

How did that happen? Now they are controlling my movements while I sleep? Before I even got out of bed this morning I googled 444 (I've never had this prompt before) and it said something about being comforted. Reading this brought tears to my eyes. Do you think it has something to do with my research on depression last night?
There is something to this and I am determined to figure out what the message is. I am going to try to meditate more, but I don't even know how to do it "right" I guess... I did a few guided meditations and usually they relax me but how do I get answers?
I apologize for the length of this post... Thank you for reading!